Over a year later....shifting of energies

So, I finally remembered that I had started a blog more than a year ago. I love the name that I gave my blog spot. Jeanne laughed uncontrollably when she read it. Well....let's just say that I finally got ambitious AGAIN. Let's see how long this lasts.

Yesterday, I had a crystal healing treatment. I usually don't buy into those kind of airy fairy healing methods strongly believing that I can take care of things myself. The fact that I have an incredible desire to quit my job of almost 15 years, whether I have something to go to or not, is rather telling. But am I able to listen and follow through? It is easy to note that this has not been the case because I am still working there. Hence the crystal healing treatment. What is blocking me from being able to tear myself away from such a toxic environment is beyond me. Why can't I just move forward? What the hell is keeping me tethered to this place?

During the healing session, I experienced a couple of different things. The room itself was very warm. I remember thinking how cozy it felt. But as I lay in solitude with various crystals strategically placed on the table and on me, I felt a very cold breeze filter across my left side. It happened twice. My feet started getting cold and once that happens, I'm lost to the body's lack of comfort. Instead I invoked my meditation skills of shifting my consciousness away from my physical state of being. I later felt the shifting of energy in various parts of my body. It was a very interesting and apparently (for me) indescribable feeling. At one point, I felt extreme fear and imagined that someone was walking into the darkened room; approaching me with a long bladed knife. I could almost feel it hovering over my chest; ready to be plunged in. It was at that moment that I felt compelled to open my eyes. Of course I was "alone" in the room.

Afterwards, the healer returned to the room and we discussed my experience. Except for relating the intense fear I felt, I opened up about the other things. Despite the room being very well heated, my feet were ice cold. That indicates, he stated, that I had astrally travelled but I couldn't remember such a thing. Whether I believe that or not is still open for debate. After a long discussion about my experiences and some things that he pulled from my subconscious, I've had a couple of incidents where a strong feeling of energy shifting and awareness has hit me. The first time was when we were creating our polymar clay tiles for our artist's project. The second incident was when I was starting to write a comment on someone else's blog. Both instances were very strong. The healer did indicate the crystal session would continue bringing up things for me during the next few days. I haven't "seen" anything but it's been more of an emotional/feeling type of shifting for me.

So we shall see what shifts and where I am at next time I post.